College

DAY 13

Totally unexpected.

A college friend actually wants to meet up with me.

I dunno. I haven't had contact with him in quite some time.

Actually, I haven't had a lot of contact with people in quite some time. Anti-social.

I miss college.

Never had to worry about anything... well, except for passing. But I managed that.

It was carefree and fun, and you didn't really have to deal with "real life" yet.

It just sucks right now.

But hey. No use going back.

But I guess college is the reason I am what I am. How I got to this point in my life.

I never should've wasted all those chances. And what for? For shit.

Anyway, he left a message on the answering machine.

Said he wanted to talk over some coffee. Seemed serious.

I hope he's not using me to kill his self-doubts. I've had enough "I have a better life than you" episodes in my life to deal with.

But why am I being so negative about this?

The effects of being a loner. (I should ask my psychiatrist about this.)